A Not So Updating Update

**Full update on our TTC journey in less than 2 weeks....**

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My monthly posting.... :)

Well, tis time for the monthly posting on my blog! Update: Round 1 on Femera with trigger shot didn't work. Frustrating, since I had high hopes b/c the clomid rounds didn't work. But, I'm trying to think positively. My RE said that it may take a round of Femera before it really works. We'll see.

Round 2: Last time on day 14, I had one follicle that was a 15. This time on day 14, I had one follicle that was a 19. Much better, right? :) The nurse couldn't see my left ovarie very well. So, I think there was just one mature follicle. We triggered that night, and are now on the forever long 2 week wait. I am praying A LOT, but also trying to keep in mind that God's timing is PERFECT. It may be now, and it may not be. I should find out a week from Thurs.

DH and I are under a lot of stress. Starting a business in this economy is very hard. We are doing everything we can to make it work. Also praying about that... We are with each other practically 24/7. At first it was a little trying, b/c he's the bossman and he keeps telling me what to do! haha-- I laugh about it, but it was/is a little difficult getting used to! :) My rule is we must hug about 10 times a day. Helps the tension.

I'm going to the gym today for the first time. (at this gym anyway) I hate going by myself, especially to a new gym. But DH has a phone conference. Guess I'll just suck it up and go!

On my final note-- I did get to surprise my best friend --(who struggled with infertility issues for over 3 years and is now preggo with twins!) -- by driving 5 hrs to attend her baby shower! She had a very nice shower. I was so excited to see her-- it had been about a year and a half. (at my wedding) Anyhoo, I better get back to work before the bossman comes up here. :)

1st, 2nd, & 3rd RE appts

1st of all-- I've come to a realization. It's NOT that I'm a bad blogger. I just will periodically blog, then I want to push all baby stuff to the back of my mind so I won't obsess/worry about it. Then a couple weeks later, I will revisit the blog, then shove it to the back of my mind again. :) It's just how I deal with it!!

Now, to the RE Appts. I really like my doctor. He seems super nice and knowledgable. They tested DH, and that all came back NORMAL. They did a lot of bloodwork on me... All of it was normal except for the PCOS part. (I can't remember the name of what they tested.) She said normal is 4% and mine was 16%. LOTS of little follicles!!

They started me on Fomera. Just so happens (thanks God!), that my 1st appt was day #3, the same day I needed to start it.

2nd visit: Did ultra-sound... She saw several follicles at a 9 or 10, but none were big enough to do the trigger shot. The RN said that a lot of times w/ PCOS patients, it may take a month or so to get the follicles going. :( Left disappointed.

3rd visit: (Today) ... RN said 1 follicle was at a 15. It might be ready in a couple days. She'll talk to the Dr and call me, but I'll probably do the shot on Sunday. (Dr was out of the office for a bit)

So, now I'm just waiting for the phone call. I told DH that he was going to have to give me the shot. There's no way I can do it. I am very squeeeemish and afraid of needles. We'll see how this goes. PRAYING FOR THE FOLLICLE TO GROW AND DO ITS THING!! :)

Off topic, I am sore as crap! I mentioned to DH that ever since I started working for him (2 months ago), I haven't been able to work out in the evenings. So, I decided to get up 30 min early and work out downstairs. Yeah... I overdid it a bit. I can't MOVE! I about died getting up on that table today for the ultrasound. Oh well-- being sore is a good thing. Now I just gotta keep it up like I used to. But I'm SOOOOO not the morning person. :/

It is time....

Well, after experiencing another lovely BFN after round 3 of Clomid.... I have made the decision. I have an appt with an RE on Monday. I'm excited! Hopefully we will really be able to get the ball rollin' and the babies flowin'!!

I've not told very many people about DH and I TTC. Although I would love to, I'm not doing it for 2 reasons: 1) I want to surprise everyone when we are preggo. 2) I don't want any more questions than I already get. I have some great excuses right now when people ask about kids: Me: "Ehh-- maybe sometime in the next year or so. We just started a business... Going to get stuff settled first..." or ... "We've only been married for a year and a half! Give us another year or so first!" It seems to work... But little do they know .... :/

I guess one good thing about having issues with conceiving is that it has made me more sensitive to others that may be trying to get preggo.

I'm also very very blessed to have such a great DH and family. (Although most of my family doesn't know about the TTC part...)

Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving!! More to come after the RE appt...

Not so crappy Monday... :)

I am still not the best at the blogger world, but I'm trying!!! I've been keeping myself busy so I won't be concentrating on trying to get 'you know what'. :) So far, it's working okay.

As far as the 'you know what' goes, I'm not sure if I ovulated this month or not. I forgot to test a couple of days, so I'm hoping that it happened then... but who knows. Guess I'll know in a week or so. If this round doesn't work, then I'm going to see if my obgyn will send me to a specialist. I've already been checking on some of the ones in the area. I don't wanna continue to waste time.

In the meantime, I watched the ENTIRE 5 seasons of LOST. It took several months, but it is a great series!!!! I think I would be 'lost' if I hadn't watched it back to back. I can't wait for the final season to start in January!! (I think that's when it is...)

Anyhoo, I need to finish making hair bows. (Yep, that's one of my hobbies... along with selling pampered chef... I've been really busy this time of year!!)

*****LET GO AND LET GOD*****

Happy Crappy Monday...

Today was the 2 week mark-- time to test! ... BFN. :( Then to top it off, hello aunt flow and the mother of all cramps. Yay.

The morning was rough, but after several small snickers, chips, pretzles, a pepsi and anything else I could get my hands on... I started to pull it together. (and put down the food.) I read Habakkuk 3:17-19 at lunch and felt a peace. Still empty, but a peace.

"Though the fig tree does not bud & there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails & the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen & no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. The Soverign Lord is my strength... He enables me."

I've called in clomid round 3. I'll start that on Wednesday. ...... I'm also thinking that I need to start posting other things besides just TTC issues. I'll try to get on that sometime this week. :)

Climbing back on the wagon...

Well-- I fell off the blogging wagon. I'm trying to get back on! Life has been crazy with me helping my husband start his own clinic AND me working for him. Plus, I have been going through a "I-don't-want-to-read-or-write-about-anything-to-do-with-pregnancy" time period. I think I'm over it. :) ... For now anyway!

With the gall bladder MIA, we have proceeded with round 2 of clomid. I am back to my OBGYN in my hometown and she seems much more knowledgable about this. She used to work in a fertility clinic. If this round doesn't work, we are having DH checked out. She said she normally does that BEFORE clomid. Hmm.. my old doc needs to do some more research. Anyhoot, I ovulated and am now waiting to see what God has in store. I'll be able to test this coming Monday or Tuesday. Waiting is definitely the hardest part!!

To date: 15 months off BC.

Gotta go-- still at work!! :)